Thanks sixpack, (I would adress you by your name but I don't happen to know it.) I don't want to live my entire life like this either. I should be enjoying my high school years like all of my other friends, and I hate being that one kid who just isn't like the rest, even if only I know it. And you're right. I wish my brain would let me believe that I'm okay, but it's hard. Maybe I should start going to therapy but I'm worried that will make me feel even more like an outcast.